Middle of the work day writing or posting is not the norm for me, but I need a break from the chaos of the last 24 hours, the last 8 specifically so writing a quick one will help. Also, bummer, I don’t think I am going to get a run in tonight as I have a late and very important meeting. Maybe I will just go to the dog-ro-mat. Those boys stink and it is very satisfying to get them clean.
My day started with a computer related meltdown at 6AM that made me 20 minutes late leaving and the task at hand unfinished. Already grumbly, I did not have time to stop for caffeine, but was keyed up anyway and I hoped for an anxiety buzz. I pulled into the underground garage, ran my computer up to my desk and logged in to touch base with the boss, then hurried back to the garage, then on to my next stop. I dropped my car off at the mechanic via an unexpected construction related detour, then hopped the train back to my office which was mercifully on time and then dove headlong into work. (Still no caffeine… ) There is a level of tedium going on right now that I refuse to let get me down, rather instead focus on gratitude for having a good stable job, but those irritations were creeping in on top of the to-do list.
Then all of the sudden, total anarchy. There’s not much that can knock me off balance, but an interruption by my personal life at work is one that can have me teetering. Today I got kneecapped.
I’ve recently downed a cappuccino and a chocolate croissant which helped.
And another, much more cooler thing has me standing all the way back up almost.
Yesterday during lunch I was doing a little surfing and looking at blogs of writers I like and was feeling inspired not only by their writing, but by their success. I of course checked out dooce, and saw that she had been at a summit of women bloggers over the weekend and I remembered that I needed to go check out the host’s website, Mighty Girl. I had forgotten about Maggie Mason, the creator of Mighty Girl, but for aspiring writers like me, she is a success story worth following.
Anyhoodle, she has a feature called The Mighty Life List, which is, you guessed it, a list of all the things you’d like to do in your lifetime. (I refuse to call it that OTHER name.) I love a list, so between bites of my yummy pasta and lentils, I started jotting some of my own down, and in just doing that could feel myself having that giddy lightness fill up my heart and head. I have been so damn serious lately, dealing with such serious, complex, multilayered, material problems, the kind that intrude on my workday, I have had no space for lightness. I haven’t felt inspired, or silly, or funny, let alone daydreamy. I have been, quite necessarily, a machine.
So I let myself daydream. It felt good. I am going to keep working on my list and then I will share it here. And then, I will start checking it off.
Writing a blog was on there. Would ya look at that?